he doesn't care about the diary
Me: there's something I've been wanting to talk to you about for a couple days now cause it's been making me feel guilty
Him: ok
Him: what
Me: ok....we talked about the diary thing a few days ago......remember how you said that I probably had one with a different name?
Him: yep
Me: well....
Me: I do have a different one
Me: but hear me out
Him: ok
Me: I started it
Me: and
Me: its different
Me: its not like poetical was
Me: but when you said that
Me: I felt guilty
Me: here...go see
Him: no
Me: I don't like feeling like I'm hiding something from you
Him: dont show me
Me: yes
Him: no
Me: I want you to see
Him: i dont wanna know
Me: its not like that one was
Him: i dont want to know
Him: no
Him: keep it to yourself
Me: its not me takling about my life
Me: or you
Him: no more diary for me
Him: no
Him: no
Him: no
Him: no
Him: no
Him: no
Me: ok but let me explain something about it
Me: every entry is one or two sentences
Me: like ...
Me: "my reply is silence for there is no sound to this thought" is one of em
Him: LQQK
Me: "i'd like to walk around the curve of your smile" is another
Me: its like fortunes in cookies
Him: if you want to have an online diary
Me: short
Him: go for it
Him: but just dont show me the link
Me: wait.......this isn't something I did to hide from you
Me: its something I did before
Him: then i wont know and there wont be a problem
Me: its got the clouds picture on it
Me: remember the clouds?
Me: I had a clouds picture on it and then my host died and I had to get a new clouds
Him: LOOK
Him: I DONT WANNA KNOW
Me: I heard you
Him: end of diary discussion
Him: if you want one go 4 it just dont tell me or show me
Me: but that made me feel like somehow I was lying to you and I refuse to do that
Him: ok
Him: but now im telling you to not tell me
Him: about any new or existing diaries
Me: ok
Him: kewl
Me: but I promise swear its not personal
Me: its poetic lines
Me: its like fortunes from cookies
Me: i fuck with html on that site and try to make each entry different somehow
Him: you dont get it do u
Him: I DONT WANNA KNOW
Me: fine
Him: good
Me: when you can talk to me without yelling let me know
Him: ok
Him: but you kept going on and on
Him: long after i said i dont wanna know first time
Me: ok from now on I'll hide everything from you
Him: get real
Him: we are talking about one thing
Him: you need to reread this conversation
Him: and see where you kept going on and on and on
Him: and your still doing it
Me: i have twice and theres no good reason for you to START TO YELL AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Him: yes there is
Him: you refuse to respect my wishes when i said i dont wanna know the first time
Him: Go read
Me: ok I read it
Me: for the 3rd time
Him: good
Him: now did i ask nice the first time
Me: yes
Him: ok now its my turn
Him: Why wasnt asking you nice the first time sufficient for you
Me: *shrugs*
Me: shoulda been
Him: are you tired
Me: maybe
Him: if you tell me look i dont want to discuss catheters ever again
Him: id remember that
Me: if I told you that we would never be able to talk again!
Me: lol
Him: ok
Me: just remember one thing for me ok?
Him: sure
Me: just one thing
Me: and I want you to try to disclaim this statement of mine
Me: because I bet you can't
Him: lets see
Him: i have to see what im betting on before i bet
Me: I HAVE NEVER PUT ANY RESTRICTIONS ON WHAT YOU COULD OR COULD NOT DISCUSS WITH ME."
Him: true
Him: but you always have that option
Him: and in this case
Him: it has nothing to with being interested or not
Him: it has to do with its better i didnt know
Me: ok
Him: i am not a number #1 fan of an online diary
Him: never was
Him: but that doesnt mean you cant have one
Him: i just choose not to know
Me: thats ok too, you have that right
Me: but let me just ask you one thing
Me: can you see why it was buggin me?
Him: one thing again
Him: yeah cause i hit it right on the head
Me: do you know that I don't want to hide things from you?
Him: yes
Him: but let this be the exception
Me: ok I just don't want to ever lie to you again
Him: i understand
Me: I hope so. I'm sorry if I upset you.
Him: no you didnt
Him: you sorta upset yourself
Me: yeah story of my life