PoeticaL
cluttering the net since 2001

heading out...

Saturday, Nov. 30, 2002
I’m about to hit the road and go see the Blue Joules CD release show. I’m going stag. Yep alone. What a success I am. I mean, really…. I gotta do this alone. Sad. But I won’t let that stop me. I will not let that get me down. I will put on my black lace and a smile and head out the door and psyche myself up with all the thoughts of hearing my stuff being played. Yeah, that’s what I’ll do. That and I’ll have a corona and I’ll smile at strangers, put some perfume on my wrists, and celebrate alone.

In the end all we have is ourselves. And besides, no one was there when I sat in my apartment all alone back in March writing the lyrics that are, distorted as they may be now, the new song. That was all me.

I bet I end up crying standing there hearing my songs.. I always do. And then theres no one to hug and have a beer with. Sad really…..wait…

I am successful. I am going with a smile… uh yeah…

Last time I came home and played the song in my car’s cd player for “him”, probably be a repeat sometime tonight…

-PoeticaL
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