i'll be there if you need support..
me: i mean everyone everywhere
me: what about my coworker Unger saying that crap to me...which incidentally blew up yesterday and work right now is a big mess....
t: whats that?
me: I got tired of the rude comments flying around the room and I brought it up in an email with my 2 bosses and Unger.
me: in an email
me: basically told them what I thought
t: ok
t: and?
t: people didnt like that?
me: I pretty much think I shouldn't have to go to work and listen to that crap day in and day out
t: nope you shouldnt
me: and I watched them all haggling this other guy that works there about never getting any from his wife
t: dicks
me: right
me: and he was getting upset
me: and granted its his own fault for telling them he doesn't get any
me: but still
me: if he's got all sorts of problems at home why should he have to come to work and listen to total crap from them too
t: right
me: basically no one really addressed anything with me
me: the 3 of them just gathered together to whisper about my emails and nothing got said about it at all
t: emails that you sent?
me: yeah....
me: I'll show ya
t: ok
me: long boring stuff
me: but I was upset, and to be honest with you I'm slowly losing my patience with all the crap in my life
me: tired of sitting idly by saying nothing
t: i can understand
me: I was nice about it if you ask me
t: true
me: I'm gonna forward the whole thing to ya
me: it's coming from *(*@&(*^@hotmail.com
me: I forwarded them to myself to protect myself or whatever
t: ok babe....what another email account?
me: teeheee
me: I knew you were gonna say that
t: how many is that?
me: that's all of em
me: now
t: right
me: this one was my main thing but I get so much spam on there its insane
me: of course you have to read this email from the bottom email up
me: the bottom one is the one I sent first
t: ok
me: Boss is the owner....Unger is the guy that made that comment to me that I talked to you about the other day and L is Bosss ex-girlfriend now accounting chick
me: hello?? I lost ya
t: nope reading
me: k
t: ok..
t: I can finish later
me: yeah it's not pretty stuff....
t: nope isnt
me: but I think that's why I was kinda just cranky last night.... carry over on crap stuff
me: I don't need to go to work and put up with more
me: I worked on my resume last night and I'm going to buckle down and look for something else
t: ;-)
t: good
me: being around all that negativity at work sucks
t: yep
me: ya know.....all I want is to be happy and it feels so much like I'm always being sabotaged or something....and I don 't want to blame my problems on other people...but man...sometimes its hard not to
t: i know baby
me: what I really would like to say to Unger? "hey man why do you have to be a dick towards me? Do you not think I have enough stuff to deal with?" and just knee him in the groin and go back to work lol
t: sounds like a plan
me: i was pretty diplomatic....i even threw in this lame apology for not saying something sooner and handling it quicker and more efficiently
me: I left out the part about "c'mere let me knee you"
me: lol
t: ;-)
me: ok....so reason I'm telling you now?
me: about this...
t: ok
me: cause I was cranky last night and....it had nothing to do with you...and I owe you an apology for being so...um..whatever
t: accepted but unnecessary...
t: I will always for give you
me: i didn't want to bring it up last night cause I didn't want to start crying out of mere frustration and making a big scene over something that should probably not bother me
t: it should bother you
me: and in all honesty.... its not even what he said...
me: its just that there's so much going on that it sometimes doesn't take much for me to just want to crumple and say "ok ok just run all over me...just get it all over with already"
me: so hard to be constantly strong
t: Ill be there if you need support
me: i know...
me: i knew that last night too
t: ok
t: then
me: i just hate being so sad all the time around you because that's not who I really am
me: does that make sense to you?
t: yes it does babe
me: i just want to be kristy again so bad
t: you are still Kristy
me: yes but it's so easy to forget
t: you are still you to me
me: awwwww
me: ty for saying that to me... you have no idea....
t: no need to thank me babe
me: yeah there is because it means a lot to me and I am thankful even if I don't have to say it... i want to
t: :-)
me: sometimes like right now it just sucks that I can't just hug you...
me: i mean that's what I would do if I could
t: *hugs*
me: i'd just hug you and then you'd know and I wouldn't have to say anything
me: sometimes its when you arent' saying one thing that is at all sexual that I want to come rip off your clothes and grind against your stomach and scream your name until I lose my voice
t: ;-)
me: i love you tony
t: i got some cream for that
me: teehee....
me: for sore throats?
t: yep..
t: kinda like Dickbalm except for throats
me: lol
t: what?
t: ?
me: that's just funny
me: dickbalm
t: ok
me: ok I gotta get goin
me: gotta go to the salt mines
t: ok baby
t: sorry about that
me: sorry about what?
t: someone asked a question
me: no its ok...don't be sorry about that stuff
t: :-)
t: buh bye babe..
t: have fun ok
t: I love you
me: i love you right front
t: :-)