jogging 2 miles...pc boy
t: morning
me: lol hi
t: got a few minutes before I go out running
me: i see
t: so how was your run today
me: lol
t: what?
me: nothing
t: so what ch up tpp
t: too
me: nothing
t: what else
me: nothing else
me: i'm just sitting here
me: i cleaned the house
me: i straightened out my cds today
t: sounds like you just had a blast!
me: phhft
me: i've been with bucky all day
me: yoyo split
me: no clue where he is
t: ok
me: so i couldn't go do anything without taking bucky along
t: true....
t: you dont think that he wouldn't enjoy a walk with mom?
me: lol
me: we went on the bikes
t: oh ok...
me: he has a kickass bike
t: about 20 miles?
me: lol
t: ;-)
t: no?
me: no
me: and....
t: ...;-)
me: i was upset with you
me: i lied
me: you wanna change me just like �him� did
me: and worse yet ...he called me and woke me up this morning to tell me to stop being lazy and get my act together and I said "yeah I guess...now I gotta do more than read a book, I gotta run 2 miles..." I explained and guess what. He agrees with you.
t: LOL
me: that's not LOL
t: and I am not trying to change you....
me: he has changed his mind about you and now is on YOUR side
me: he said he's all for anyone that wants me to get my shit together
me: he wears on my last nerve
t: I am not trying to change you...
t: picture this..
me: hmmmpfht
t: me about 11 years ago...getting ready to join the army....
me: heres what I picture...Im' gonna go find some guy I can wrap around my finger...who does nothing but lick me all day
t: <-------raises his hand and jumps up and down
t: pick me
me: lol nope
me: I told �him� he could have your nick...the two of you are perfect for each other
me: ya know what he said
t: whta?
me: he said "if you keep liking awesome guys like us why don't you just fix your ass so you can have one"
t: hmpft
t: there is nothing wrong with your "ass"
me: ok here's what he said
me: he said you want me to be happy
me: same thing he wants
me: and when I sit around saying i can't sleep and i'm unhappy and sad and blah blah blah you just want me to go find happiness
t: you cant find happieness.....
me: have to make it
t: either it is there or it isn't....
t: and it has a lot more to do with what is inside than what surrounds you
me: bull
t: hmpft...
me: come sit in my life for awhile and tell me that
t: then how can I be sitting here in a shit hole and be happy?
me: um
me: thats cause you're delusional
t: nope..
me: we've established this
t: nope...
t: I am not delusional...
me: hmmmm
t: tel you what...
me: but you think I'm all that
t: you are all that and a bag of oreo cookies
t: so hpmft
me: kristy = mass confusion, sadness..blah blah
t: hmpft....
t: nope....
t: kristy = sexy, erotic, misunderstood
me: hmmm
me: well he also seems to think that even if I ran 2 miles everyday I can't have you
t: lol
me: cause you're life's the army and you don't have room for me and I had better get that in my head
t: you can have me even if you dont run at all
me: he called me up on a sunday morning to tell me not to fall for you cause i can never have you
t: ok...
t: I though he was on my side?
me: on the "wanting me to change" issue he is
t: and yes the army is a big part of my life....
me: well like he said "he'll be someplace else always....how can he be what you want?"
t: hate to say it but that is the army life...
me: well...hate to tell you but I've known this all along have I not?
t: that is why it is so hard for some people
t: yes you have
me: and do you think I have issue with that/
me: ?
t: *shrugs*
t: not now
t: there is a friend of mine here...
t: George Cassels.....
t: smart man....
me: ok..
t: CCIE, CCNP
t: MCSE etc right
me: ok
t: do you know how long he was at home this year?
me: lol one week
t: six weeks total
me: and is he married?
t: yep, two kids
me: and his wife...is she kewl with it?
t: some what.....but he is getting out of the army here in feb though...
me: because of her?
t: too much money for a warrant to make on the outside
t: and a little bit because of the family issue
me: t...
t: yes
me: listen to me
me: none of my doubts..about anything have shit to do with the Army
t: ok
me: thats an issue I thought about a long time ago
me: and had to decide back then whether I thought I could deal with it
me: �him� likes to point out that I�m not real because he never met me
me: right?
me: for 3 years now I'm not real
t: right
me: but all his lame ass girlfriends are real
t: what ever
me: the ones that dont' have time for him
me: the ones he cant' talk about work with
me: the ones that don't care what he's doing or not doing
me: right?
t: ok
me: so he calls me up because none of them can ever be that towards him
me: but I'm not real
me: doh
me: let me tell you the same thing I told him
t: ;-)
me: about this whole thing
t: ok
me: you are real
me: just because I haven't touched you doesn't make you any less real to me
me: i know you exist
me: i feel you in my life
t: <----pinches himself to make sure
t: ouch
me: you don't have to touch me for me to know this
me: and if you and I were together and you had to go you'd still be real
me: you might be somewhere else
me: and I might wear out a lot of vibrators in the interim
me: but if you were my best friend....and I could communicate with you the way we do
t: ;-)
me: i'd be happy
t: ;-)
me: i know these things because I have lived in a house with someone for ten years that never got me
me: he's right there
me: in front of me
me: every day
me: and he's never seen me
me: known me
me: do you understand what I'm trying to say?
t: yep...
t: I do
me: so ... so what if you're 7,000 miles away
me: it makes sex impossible
me: but everything else is there
t: yep....
me: ok so..... i've been in the middle of stuff where there was nothing...
me: and if you were only with me for 6 weeks....so be it
t: ;-)
me: as long as you weren't out fucking half of the world while I missed you
me: i'd be ok
t: ;-)
t: hey...love
me: i know
me: you gotta go
t: I only plan on doing the 2 mile course for time
me: what?
t: I only plan on running 2 mile this morning...
me: ok
me: t
me: you can do whatever you want to do
t: and I am going to time myself to see how fast i am
t: ;-)
t: I know
t: I was just telling you is all
t: ;-)
me: lol ok
me: why you so happy today?
t: it is a run day!
me: ok
me: he asked me if I was gonna go find a track
me: and run
me: i said "yeah....no one's telling me that I can't do something or even thinking that i can't"
t: ;-)
me: i dont care if you never see it
me: i'll know I did it
t: good girl!
me: he asked me how I was gonna feel if they deploy you from afghanistan to somewhere else
me: if I never met you
me: how would I feel
me: that I wouldn't surely be all dissapointed and why am I setting myself up
me: hey if they ship you somewhere..then that's whats meant to be...besides its not like your sitting somewhere with a pocket ful of money not buying a $150 airline ticket for no damn good reason"
t: LOL
t: good..
me: he really needs to leave me alone
t: besides the only other place they would send me other than here is to the west
me: the west?
t: (wink)
t: look on a map and see the countries to the west of here
me: c'mon just tell me
t: I cant say...
t: but it starts with an "I" and ends with a "Q"
me: yeah well I assume that I may never meet you
me: i have to make that assumption
me: don't you think
t: yep...
t: but I should get going babe
me: ok bye
t: I should be back in a little while....
t: couple hours maybe
me: k
t: ok
t: ;-)
t: you gone?
me: nope
t: hello?
me: i'm here
t: ok
t: had to check
me: lol
t: buh bye love
me: bye
man I really don�t want to have a yahoo chat boyfriend�.forever�. But I tell ya what I'm gonna fucking learn to run at least two miles. No boys are gonna tell me I can't!