PoeticaL
cluttering the net since 2001

not wanting to engage

Monday, Jan. 16, 2006
I haven’t felt like writing because everything that is going on makes me feel withdrawn. I can only say that my kid rocks the kasbah and I wish I would have had my camera with me to capture photo’s of him so diligently assisting me with washing my car today. It was sweetness beyond belief. My son’s growing up too fast.

I also haven’t wanted to write lately because my doctor put me on a new and completely different drug and after 3 days I feel no different and it’s not helping…yet. I’ve been cranky and angry and yelling at my husband and while he deserves part of it he doesn’t deserve all of the wrath that I am now unleashing.

If I am seemingly ignoring you….believe me I’m not…I’m just unable at the moment…..unable to truly engage with anyone or anything. Oddly enough…this feeling does not include my son.

Sometimes I think the dream of wanting nothing but a happy family is forever destroyed once there is “divorce” present.

10:31 p.m. ::
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