orlando 2
Just to make this clear so you don�t
have to read last nights chat yourself.
�He� is coming to
�He� asked (with much assumption) if
I wanted to meet him.
I think �he� was upset by my lack of �jumping
up and down� excitement.
I woke up with this very issue on my
mind.
I talked to Delboy about this. He suggested the following.
- Go to the beach
- Get a tan
- Forget �him�
Everyone says the same things to me
about him. It�s hard to make anyone
understand why there�s this invisible thread from me to him that nothing seems
to change. It�s just there. And there
are reasons I�ve just never revealed anywhere�
�him��s words�
�why can�t you just let it be what it
is and find out?�
oh�.its all so simple to him because
he thinks I�m living in that apartment � �finding myself�.
He knows nothing different because I
closed him out of all of realities when I moved out and was free and he chose
to pick that moment to tell me �awww well that�s nice let me tell you about my
girlfriend Jill!�
*gulp*
That was too much for me�.too much to
hear and especially right then.
So maybe when he asks me about
Did I do that? Nope.
I sat there hyperventilating with a thousand and then some more thoughts�.
Why does he still have this affect on
me?
Delboy valiantly tried to tell me �yeah
I think you�re over him�.you�ve moved on.�
Nice try Del..
But then again�.there�s
someone/something else in the front of my mind that I should just not fear and
let happen�..someone that called me at the rightest of right times last
night.
Love is an odd assortment of candies
in a jar, some always taste sweet and perfect regardless of how many times you�ve
had them before, some give you cavities, some make you CRAVE more, some just
give you a sugar rush and some are just forever stuck in your teeth throbbing.
�him� is a throbbing piece of candy.