he's so damn cool
�t�: but your online diary� it is...
�t�: for you to share with your internet friends..
Me: i know it sounds crazy but I get good advice there
Me: those people are not involved in my life
Me: they see stuff I miss
�t�: exactly
�t�: exactly...
�t�: and can you do me this favor
Me: what?
�t�: ?
Me: sure
Me: name it
Me: let me have it
Me: c'mon tell me
�t�: don't ever tell me where it is
�t�: your diary
Me: I didn't tell him
�t�: I am not going to search for it..
Me: he made it his business to find it, but it was my fault too
�t�: lol
Me: he did
�t�: I won't
Me: and thing is I never said his name
�t�: that is your "private circle"
Me: and I never lied about anything on there
Me: yes I lied to him...yes it was wrong.....I told him because it was wrong and I want to make my life all right
�t�: ok..
�t�: it is stuff that he had no business looking at..
�t�: hypothetical situation ok..
Me: ok
�t�: you and I have "hooked up" and doing the nasty dance ok
Me: lol ok
�t�: ok
Me: i like you're hypothetical thinking.....
�t�: lol
�t�: ok
�t�: anyways..
�t�: if I was talking to my friends about the err nasty dance stuff...
�t�: and you heard it...it might make you mad
�t�: you know..
Me: yeah...
�t�: guy shower talkk type of stuff
Me: as long as you say something that makes those guys jealous of you......I'm happy
Me: ok ok...sorry...continue
�t�: the way my mind is racing right now...
�t�: OH BOY
�t�: but...
�t�: that is why I don't care what you say about me....it is none of my business...what you say about me in your diary...
Me: but �t�....
�t�: is this making any sense
Me: there's not one girl out there that doesnt' want to know how to get to ya
�t�: ?
Me: I dig you
Me: in a big way
Me: and when I write about you it comes across
�t�: ok...nothing wrong with that
Me: and.....there's a lot of people that have been reading for a year now
Me: they know how unhappy I've been
Me: so for them to see someone making me smile...making me believe in things....
Me: they're happy for me
Me: I get a lot of "he sucks...quit talking to him....how's t?" comments
�t�:
�t�: I am not going to tell you to stop talking to him...it is in your nature not to
Me: I think right now if I said something bad about you they'd kill me
Me: well here's the thing �t�
�t�: I doubt that...just remind them I am only a man
Me: i really realized that he's not a bad person.......and I"m not a bad person for things I did
Me: it's just some people are bad for each other
Me: and there's where we're at
�t�: like I said...
Me: I have a question
�t�: I am not going to tell you to stop talking to you...
�t�: shoot
�t�: 20?
Me: tell me that's not how it's going to ever be.....is it going to be that way.....are we gonna end up sorry we got to know each other?
�t�: I can only hope not...
�t�: but..
�t�: niether of us can see the future
Me: i feel bad cause this has nothing to do with you but can you see why i'm struggling?
�t�: Yes I can see why.
Me: despite what everyone thinks...I said I wasn't going to do this
Me: I wanted to contact you...thank you for carrying a gun....Ididn't know you were a laptop warrior....and be done.
�t�:
�t�: I like that..
Me: laptop warrior?
�t�: Network Management Technician
�t�:
Me: teeheee
Me: ok ok
�t�: it is still nice verse
Me: i wish i could hug you
Me: cause i feel better
Me: and I don't know how you do that
�t�: *hugs*
�t�: I wish I could promise you the heavens and earth for ever and ever...
�t�: but I can't...
�t�: at least not yet
�t�: does that make any sense
Me: listen.....you're doing something for me that no one else has ever done and if you do nothing more ever it will forever mean something to me
Me: you are being my friend without conditions....
�t�:
Me: do you know how sweet that is?
Me: do you have any idea how much it means to me?
Me: do you know �t�?
Me: I hope you just know.
�t�:
�t�: I think I do
Me: think harder
Me:
�t�: why?
Me: because ....it means a lot
�t�: I do know haw much it means to you...
�t�: that is why..
�t�: I try to stop you from getting into those...
�t�: friendship destructive moods..
�t�: remember the "internet slap"?
Me: and I'm struggling right now because I made mistakes before and i want to get it straight in my head before i make mistakes with you.
Me: and yeah... "friendship destructive moods" ...that's me eh?
Me: how horrible
�t�: I don't have problem with that....either way I will be here...ok?
Me: ok �t�