one dozen to one
1. My ex husband pisses me off. (I admit this, if he didn�t we�d still be married�this is no secret I hold from my son�.please save me the b.s.)
2. I can never get a complete handle on my weight or health. (I admit this freely because I�m human and I�m Italian and I love good food and I�m in college and I don�t have time to exercise�.and�yah you get the jist)
3. I throw things when I�m angry, pissed off, discontented. (this I believe now is due to my ovaries being whacked out�..either that or because I�m depressive and suffer from depression and I�m depressed about my f�d up ovaries�.etc�.and�etc)
4. I am a messy housewife. (This is because I hate that word�I didn�t marry a house�I didn�t say �Always in neatness and never in filth� to any dwelling)
5. I hate writing some papers for school. (this is because there are topics I must simply make up a scenario to speak about rather that honestly writing about a real scenario�and because some professor somewhere thought it was a good idea and he�s wrong!)
6. I buy too many books. (The excuses for this are innumerable but I believe they can all be blamed on my mother who would not allow me to have some of my books when she ousted me! That and�.books rock and if you think otherwise go watch some mindless reality tv!)
7. I often am stressed out about my job, my schoolwork, my husband, my dog, my car, my life! (There is no real excuse for this except to say that I haven�t mastered stressfree living yet!)
8. I hate to clean the bathroom. (the thing is if I clean it it gets dirty again!)
9. I hate to cook unless I have free time to cook and enjoy it. (this is not my fault�I�m simply not a Chef for a living and I never have adequate time to cook properly.)
10. I have family issues. (This is because of lots of people�.all of whom are classified as relatives!)
11. I don�t hide all of my feelings from my son. (This is because I watched my own parents live a lie and then I watched my ex-husband live tons of lies telling people everything was great when it wasn�t.)
12. I am not perfect. (oh the list of excuses�.some of them are above�.most of them are not.)
Despite this constant berating of my own b.s. issues here on my site
I have good traits. I truly do. I just never allow myself to really pat my own back enough and say these good traits here. Mostly because I�m on a constant diet of trying to fix myself, better myself, etc. I am my own worse enemy and so I berate more than you can imagine.
However I have good traits.
1. I am responsible and always pay my bills on time. I will not fake sending a check to the wrong place and while my economic skills can always use tweaking to be better, I know how to make it from paycheck to paycheck and not go homeless or die without food.
2. I am a good friend, one that is empathetic not sympathetic and full of shit. I will tell you honestly what I think and I won�t give you assvice unless you ask me for it and then I will always end that assvice sessions by saying �but don�t ask me I�m fucked up too!�
3. I always do the right thing if I understand the choices and can properly identify the wrong thing and adequately avoid it. I never intend to do the wrong thing and find no joy in being corrupt or simply one to partake of wrong doings.
4. I would never consider cheating on my current husband as he�s the hot dog to my bun.
5. I can admit when I am wrong. (disclaimer: unless I�m having a power struggle with the hot dog in my life.)
6. I am a responsible pet owner. I take good care of my dog and love her with all that I am every single day. I adore her and spoil her and hug her until she�s got indentations from my cheeks all over her tiny body. I also do not mind doggy fur on my lips because this must happen in order to properly smooch on her. ( I do avoid her ass licking mouth tho��there is a limit to my love)
7. I know how to stay organized and ralley people together to work on any project together and I foster a good mentality within every group of people I�ve worked with. I�d always be voted for �most likely to take charge and succeed�.
8. I know how to properly fold the top sheet under the corner of the mattress so that it WILL NEVER come back out without a crowbar. (This is sadly a unneeded skill as the hot dog doesn�t like top sheets and I�ve given up on them since knowing him.)
9. I know how to match up socks even when half of them are missing and one must improvise. (this is very important in the hot dog�s life)
10. I am the sort of mother that allows my son to say whatever he really wishes to say without punishing him for speaking from his heart. I never turn him away and I never belittle him for any reason.
11. I am a good mother. (ask my kid, he�s the only one who�s opinion matters on this issue!)
12. I have a co-worker who�s done little but try to compete with me. Today I bought her her first college book and wished her good luck. Everyone else was amazed. I like her despite the fact that she tries hard to make me not like her. She makes it known inadvertently that she doesn�t fancy me much. (I made her cry when she found out that I flipped the bill for her first book. I sent it to her via another manager in her location who did me a favor by being the delivery service for me! The book was $27.95 and I was glad to help and support her decision.)
Ok so there�s a dozen of one and a dozen of the other but overall I�m not all shit and I�m not all glorious. I am human. Rather than tell me about the same faults I write about here, why not outnumber me with your own good points and offer the world something great? Rather than my being my own worst enemy I want to move towards being my own biggest supporter.
Kristy,
I think everyone can improve. I also think you constantly try to be better by admitting you have faults and working on them.
I think you rock and I loved you then, I love you now, I will still love you when�.
Love,
Kristy
special thanks to the kid, the dog, and the hot dog in my life...without you three I might resort to allll bad things!