just call...that's all !!!
Thursday, Jan. 17, 2002
I think I am falling into some very sad state of depression or something. I am feeling the bitterness coursing through my veins. All the times asking myself �why is this all happening?� is getting to me. All the self-doubt is taking its toll. I wonder why I haven�t just submitted to a nervous breakdown. I wonder how fast I would get bored with rubber rooms. I wonder if a candy bar would fix this feeling.
Every phone call that I pick up..my heart jumps�and then it�s some dweeb asking for a stock check or something and I�m over it. Why is it when I want to hear his voice..when I need to, it doesn�t happen. Why is it when I simply start to �want� that I start to hurt?
I just told Delboy who came over to tell me there�s an LED in my calculator (brilliant deduction slick!) ..the following..
�Maybe tonight I�ll just tell �him� that its over, that it�s just all over. There problem solved!�
He said while rolling his eyes, �why would you want to do that?�
To which I replied, �Problem solved.�
-PoeticaL
�It�s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.�
-R.E.M.
I could leave but I won't go
It'd be easier I know
I can't feel a thing from my head down to my toes
But why does it always seem to be
Me looking at you, you looking at me
S'always the same, just a shame, that's all
Truth is I love you
More than I wanted to
There's no point in trying to pretend
There's been no-one who
Makes me feel like you do
-Genesis
hang on for the ride, I think it�s going to get stranger sooner than later
