projected asshole
There are moments of complete clarity about everything. When we both understand it all. Or so it would appear. The fact that we can laugh about the things that aggravate us and torment us and make things so difficult�..it amazes me sometimes. I have to remember that we find this together because I project that by Friday he�ll be an asshole again�..lol
he left to talk to his roommate and then came back�
Him: sorry
Me: no...dont' be
Me: that's stupid
Him: we had one of our talks
Him: good one
Me: thats good
Him: yeah well i know i only have few minutes till he goes to her house
Him: once that happens its over
Me: I know
Me: I told you don't sweat it
Me: i'm fine
Him: ok
Me: i'm not the bitch you seem to think I am
Him: i dont think your a b.
Me: c'mon
Me: you can tell me
Me: I'm not gonna get mad
Him: yes i can
Him: and never once out of all the swearin have i called you a bad name
Me: i know
Me: pretty amazing
Me: lol
Him: theres a reason
Me: ?
Him: !
Him: %
Him: $
Me: what's the reason?
Me: lol
Him: i was just too mad to think of any good names to call you
Him: HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Him: j/k
Me: c'mon I know that's not true....you're a smart guy
Me: and bitch is a small word
Him: no its aweful
Him: its not the kind of word i use when i think highly of someone
Me: <----looks around.....
Him: lose your horse?
Me: I thought we were talking about me here.
Him: yes we are
Me: <----pinches herself
Me: yeah I'm awake
Him: did it hurt
Me: yes
Him: good
Me: lol
Him: do you need my head up the ass pic
Me: hahahaha no
Him: ok ill keep it on reserve just in case
Me: I just never assume anything with you.
Him: well you know better than 2 do that
Him: with me
Me: thats right
Him: let me tell you about figuring me out
Him: NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER
Him: NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER
Him: NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER
Me: I know.
Him: NEVER
Me: I'm well aware.
Him: IM NOT TYPICAL PERSON
Me: I KNOW
Him: lol
Him: well you think hell keep his job
Me: yes
Me: for awhile
Me: til he gets bored
Me: or until someone pisses him off
Me: or until something...
Me: there's always something....
Him: maybe it could be different this time
Me: never
Him: lol
Him: you said he has his own office
Me: so what
Me: he won't care about it
Me: he'll lose it
Him: in what time frame
Me: I give him a year
Me: 18 months tops
Him: that long
Me: yeah
Him: so he can hold a job for a year
Me: then it'll be a swift downfall over 2 or 3 months time
Me: yes
Him: i was thinking 5-6 months
Me: hard to say
Me: I say a year really
Me: its already been a month
Him: on the average a year
Me: he last on average 18 months
Me: I figured it out one time
Him: did you do it with a calculator
Me: yes
Him: yeah thats how i like to figure things
Me: 17.34303912 or something like that came up
Him: is that pie
Me: I even got a piece of paper and wrote it all out
Him: 3.14
Me: I've done that with every aspect of him.
Me: one time I kept track of our sex life and found out that 99.9 % of the time he never kissed me
Me: sickening
Me: that was when I quit
Him: you always summerize up people with averages
Me: lol
Me: no
Me: just I knew I had to see it in black and white to get it thru my head
Me: c'mon 99.9% I didn't need to actually write it down to know he wasn't kissing me.
Him: youd try that shit with me but it wouldnt add up
Him: the calculator would display your fucked
Me: lol
Me: HAHAHAHAHA
Me: I am not Fucked
Him: try to calculate me youd be
Him: ok heres one
Me: hopefully I'd never even think like that
Him: how many days till i fall into a moody one
Me: 2 or 3
Him: ok
Him: after 2 or 3 then i turn into an ass
Me: hahaha
Me: I didn't say that
Him: ok ill write that on my calandar
Me: you do that
Him: ok that means by friday i should be all assholed up
Me: hahahaha
Me: by Friday night you'll be tired again
Him: oh ya
Me: the only way you'll not be assholed up is if you get your stuff in the mail...that has direct affect on assholitis
Me: that event causes a delay
Him: hehe simple cure
Him: i mean be just an assshole
Him: you think i think your a b. and i think you think im just an asshole
Me: if you were an asshole like that all the time I woulda stopped talking to you 2 1/2 years ago
Him: interesting relationship material
Me: hahahaha
Me: I never thought about it like that.
Me: know what I really think?
Him: what
Him: i am an asshole (_O_)<---
Me: that you genuinely like me and I genuinely like you and the Internet sucks.
Him: yeah the internet sucks
Him: i dont know maybe i get bored of it
Me: we both do
Me: I do too
Me: I know that I only come online cause of you
Me: everyone else is boring
Me: stupid
Him: i do know when i dont get a fucken thing done and i look back and seen i wasted the time away i get pissed at myself
Me: I know that too.
Him: yeah i have to complete so much everyday
Him: if i dont i feel well.....um..incomplete
Me: wasted day
Me: thats not a good feeling
Him: yeah
Me: i used to not understand so much stuff that now I do understand
Him: like now i have to get off here and go do my exercises and go to bed
Me: yes you do
Him: yep
Him: say good nite
Me: good night :-D
Him: nite
Him: hugs
Him: bye
Me: bye
It�s an amazing face
That smiles at me
And that is when
I realize
That nothing else
Should be idolized
Except clarity
-PoeticaL