we'll go bungee jumping or something...
t: when I sleep....
t: I sleep like a rock....
t: a freight train can go though the house and I wont
hear it
me: why do I need warned about this
me: i may never get to see you sleep
t: hmpft
me: what?
t: oh you are right.,....
t: when I get there...we wont be doing too much
sleeping
me: that remains to be seen
t: really?
t: you think we would just sleep?
me: i think you might not want to have sex with me
t: what ever
me: that is a possibility so I have to not assume
anything
me: lol t said what ever
me: lol
t: ok
t: listen to me k
me: ok
t: I am coming to visit you ok
t: I cant say when...ok
t: and when I do...
t: I dont plan on sleeping...ok...
t: ok
me: ok
t: hello
me: so we'll go bungee jumping or something
t: we will do something with rope....
t: maybe not bungee jumping though
t: ;-)
me: ok but you have to understand something
t: ok
t: whats that?
me: i assume nothing
me: i've been told lots of things lots of times in all
different ways and ...
me: how do i tell you...
me: um...
me: its like in my mind... you are all good things and
I know you are not perfect..etc... but i want to love
you with everything that I am...every part of me wants
to give you everything that I have to give...
t: ...
t: ok...
t: I understand
me: its an odd thing because i believe you when you
say you will come see me
me: i know that you can't make promises about when and
things like that
me: but ya know what t
me: i know that if you were in a position to do so...
you woulda already been here
t: exactly
me: and nope...I'm not conceited like I think I"m all
that... or that i think I'm so damn worth your time or
your effort to do that
me: i just know you would have if you could have...
t: yes you are
me: with you its not the things you say
me: and maybe some people think we're just exchanging
words back and forth
me: but that's not it
me: its two people who found someone that they can
talk to openly and without fear of judgement and all
the lame stuff that comes from all of that
t: ;-)
me: t
t: yes babe
me: i don't want you to rearrange your life to make me
fit
me: and yeah i think about you and a thousand
questions bombard me that I don't have answers for
t: ok ...ask
me: but i'm a fool that believes that if something is
meant to be it will be despite all of those things
t: next
me: ok i actually can't even imagine not knowing you
me: not having you in my life
me: not ever being with you
me: or being with you and you leave and thats it
me: i can't imagine ever having a "thats it"
me: or the end
me: or whatever
me: I just can even grasp it
me: and the idea that I can't grasp it...it's like
unreal to me
t: ;-)
me: every person I ever cared about left
me: left
me: left
me: left
me: just left
t: right
me: and I can't picture you left
t: i know
me: so how stupid am I being
t: :-)
t: not at all
me: i should be able to picture it...it's happened
enough times
t: hmpft
me: but I'm telling you
me: i can't
me: i just can't even imagine you doing that to me
t: ;-)
t: I am not all that Kristy
t: I am just a shy little old country boy from michigan
t: hello?
me: hi
t: ok..
t: i thought you had left me
me: Give what you have. To someone, it may be better
than you dare to think.
t: that sound familiar
t: ?
me: have you ever thought that maybe it doesn't matter
how we see ourselves
me: or what we think of ourselves
t: yep....but we still do it
me: if someone just thinks you're special isn't that
enough for you to be special ?
t: should be...
t: do you feel special then?
me: everytime i talk to you
t: awwww
t: Kristy...
me: yes?
t: I love you
