So it�s Sunday night and my only day off was today.� I got tons of stuff done and had the little one over today as well.� I felt badly because I was so tired I kept nodding off while we watched a sitcom together.� He�s so damn patient with me though. He�s just so happy to spend any hours with me.� It�s all over his face when he comes in the front door.� It�s pure love on that little boy face every time.

I sat him down in person and again talked to him about R and I getting married.� He said he has a suit from Daddy�s wedding.� I said, �no buster you�re wearing a tux with tails and the whole ordeal�trust me the WHOLE enchilada for you!�� He said, �oh realllllyyyy???�� I said, �Yes REALLY!�

So today I cleaned the entire apartment and did ALL of my laundry from the previous week, I finished reading The Dive from Clausen�s Pier yesterday at work and so last night I grabbed two new books.� �Shipwreck by Louis Begley� and �And now you can go by Vendela Vida�.�� I have read the entire book of �And now you can go� between a few hours last night and a few hours this morning and I can�t believe I read it so fast because for the most part outside of the tone of the book the entire storyline sucks.� There�s a lot of crazy interesting side plots and thought processes but the plotline sucks ass.� The entire book is about how some guy accosts the main female character in a public park with a gun, she reads him poetry and fakes him out enough that she escapes wittingly.� However the rest of the book is her reactions to this event and yet that event is not written very well at all.�

I just went over and hung out with R for awhile.� I swear there is no place better than in his arms.� No place�it�s the only thing that makes all the craziness of the rest of my life bearable and easily doable.� His love�