't' came front
me: you're so fucking smart i don�t know what you can possibly see in me
(he showed me a technical file he's been compiling titled "Tactical Voice Network")
�t�: whats with the profanity
�t�: ?
me: high on pain pills..remember?
�t�: ;-(
me: sorry
�t�: ok
�t�: :-)
me: plus lots of pent up anger
me: i haven't really talked to anyone for a long time
�t�: sorry about that
me: nothing for you to be sorry about
�t�: sure..I just take off for days at a time...no message nothing
me: its part of the deal
�t�: :-(
me: i'm not angry or upset with you
me: if i was i wouldn't talk to you
me: type to you
me: whatever lol
�t�: ok
me: you don�t have to worry about me doing that to you
�t�: really
me: and you don't have to be sorry
me: yeah really
me: this is just the way things are with you
me: i don't take it personally
�t�: cool
me: i'm not saying i like it or that its easy
me: negative on both
me: but i accept it
�t�: ok
me: i like you and because of that i don't want you to hesitate to want to speak to me thinking i'm just gonna be all bent out of shape over something stupid...when you're front i want it to be a good thing...not a "where the heck were you?" argument wasting time
�t�: right
me: when you're gone i miss you
�t�: ;-)
me: so why in the world would i want to yell at you when you're not gone
�t�: right
me: its like all that missing you wanting you...for nothing
me: its like that would tell you what? that i hate you and am angry about you all the time
me: that's just not true
�t�: ok
me: i still love you , i worry about you and i miss you all the time
me: when you come front that's what you should always know
�t�: :-)
me: i refuse to get mad about what you do
�t�: so what have I done that I deserve to meet someone like you?
me: its a fact, a fact i knew a long time ago
me: i dont' know �t� I could ask you the same thing
�t�: hmpft
me: i know two things that override everything else
me: that are bigger than missing you
me: bigger than the circumstances
me: bigger than getting angry over
me: i love you and i love you
�t�: :-)
�t�: I love you
me: i hope so
me: because if you do ...i'm the luckiest girl alive
notice when he says he has to go�.I turn all nasty after the earlier promise�.grr
me: can i ask you something?
�t�: :-)
�t�: shoot
me: are you happy �t�?
�t�: me..
�t�: of course
me: that's all I care about
�t�: what soldier can ask for anything else....
�t�: fighting a war..
�t�: doing his job..
me: i know baby
me: i know
�t�: beautiful woman back in FL
�t�: what else is there?
me: awwww
�t�: oh yeah...
�t�: high explosives too
�t�: :-)
me: teeeheee
me: my laptop warrior
me: i love you �t�
�t�: OMG
me: i just want you to be happy
me: omg what?
�t�: did I tell you about the Cyber war we have been fighting here?
me: no
�t�: ok...
�t�: it is probably classified...
�t�: and they are coming to arrest me right now
�t�: oh well
�t�: see you in about 5-10
me: lol
me: hey
me: stop that
�t�: what?
me: they're not coming to arrest you
�t�: nope....
�t�: <---is the cyber police
me: whew
me: dont' say stupid stuff like that to me
me: i worry enough
�t�: LOL
�t�: ok
me: stop laughing at me
�t�: but it is work time...
me: you want me to stop worrying about you?
me: caring about you?
me: i could disappear
�t�: I love you and you have fun on the track ok
�t�: nope
�t�: nope
�t�: nope
me: well I'd have to do it for a long long time before you even realized it
�t�: whatever girlfriend
�t�: <---has to work and pee
me: you say whatever girlfriend like you think i can't disappear
�t�: I could disappear too ....
�t�: wait..
�t�: I have at times..
�t�: nevermind
�t�: :-)
me: no i mean like for real forever
�t�: do you want to do that?
me: no
�t�: then dont
�t�: no problem
me: i just wonder if you have a clue how hard it is
me: like i'm dealing with all of this doing the best i can and i wonder if it even matters to you
�t�: of course it matters
me: ok then...i'm gonna go put my high butt to bed and stop being nasty just cause you're leaving and i already miss you...ok baby
�t�: ok
me: its just hard
�t�: i know
me: go pee
me: go work
�t�: in that order?
�t�: :-)
�t�: ok
me: and....make sure you come front
me: because i love you �t�
�t�: don�t I always?
�t�: I love you too
me: yes....
me: you do
�t�: bye Princess
�t�: g'night
me: bye bye baby....be safe
