good question
I never thought about what someone �gave� me vs what I did for them�until JEM asked me his question. David Banner had the right idea. Move in�piss everyone off, pack your backpack and get the fuck outta dodge. No attachments. Congratulations. You know how to cut me. You must have edward scissorhands.
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I wrote someone else a 935-word email recently and I got a 17 word reply back.
Hmm�does this mean I give more than I receive? Or does it mean I expect less than I give? Or do I just give too much? Or did JEM make me fucking paranoid. Fuck!!!
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Me: Josh?
JEM: yes?
Me: I don't like when we're like this...in fact it eats away at me.
Me: I'll break down and tell you cause I can't take it anymore
JEM: you already told me this . . .
Me: *sigh*
Me: *kicks the dirt in front of her*
JEM: i'm angry and bitter . . .
JEM: my world is cold and lonely . . .
Me: <---picks up her snoopy suitcase and walks down the road following David Banner....
JEM: the hulk?
Me: yes
Me: he needs a friend
JEM: the hulk lives in a cold and lonely world too . . .
Me: *shrugs* that doesn't matter to me
Me: he makes the best of his bad luck
JEM: the hulk died of cancer . . .
Me: <---*sobs*.
Me: "Now I have no friends"
JEM: i've noticed something . . . in this dealing . . . in a recent dealing with (girl he should forget about..her name was here) . .
Me: which is
JEM: and that is . . . everyone wants to put a spin on it . . .
JEM: everyone wants to get the last word . . .
Me: nah
Me: you can have the last word
JEM: create the common opinion . . .
Me: <-----writes "LAST WORD" on a piece of paper and hands it to Josh
JEM: i don't want it . . . and i'm tired of being mentioned in diaries . . .
JEM: like a diary entry can do me justice . . . sum me up . . . box me in . . .
Me: hmmm
Me: type something or you won't get the last word
JEM: i already said i didn't want it . . .
JEM:: what does this friendship do for you?
JEM: hahahahahahaha . . . oh god . . . fuck you
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good question� But I never think about what I am getting vs what I give. I give from my soul. If you don't like that gift....goodbye. Simple as that.
p.s. you're a diary entry! hahahahahahaha