fuck Math PART 2
It�s 1 a.m. and I�m
seriously still awake obsessing about my inability to just �get it� when it
comes to algebra.� I just look at the problems
and there are so many different ones that I can�t grasp it.� It�s not as if we have a week to master one
process.� We have a week to master 2
chapters at a time!� Insanity I tell
you!�
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That and the
apartment is clean and I feel guilty that I had little to do with it.� I want to call a maid service and find out
how much they cost.� I want to say �poof�
and fix these seemingly unfixable problems.�
ProntO!
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Tomorrow I will
slave away at work in a half awake half asleep state and wonder why I�m doing
all that I am doing.� I could chuck it
all, get a better paying job, say ta ta to the bad drama and move on.� Ohhh but that�s complete failure to chuck it
all.� Much better to fail perhaps?
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Gah both options
suck. And that suckage is what is keeping me awake when I should just call it a
day and sleep.
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Everyone�s sick of
hearing my Math woes and disappointments.�
Thank freaking all that makes the world go around that I have a great
g.p.a. so far because I�m about to go straight downwards into a spiral I can
hopefully work my way out of.� Now to
just find out if perhaps showing up for class will ensure that I get enough to
pass the class.� If so�I�m all about the
D and I�ll buy that damned d initial for my charm bracelet o�grades.� Yah I�m such a college greek that I am
building such a bracelet.� I can see it
now.� A, A, A, B, D, D� hmmm Kristy what are those D�s about?� Years from now they�ll dangle on my bracelet
and they�ll perhaps represent all the #*(!^^!^! sleepless nights of
insomnia and worry and absolute �lost� insanity I am feeling right now.
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I never thought I�d
be sleepless in st pete due to math.� I�m
so used to being sleepless due to infidelity plaguing my marriage, even
sleepless due to repossession, foreclosure�etc.
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Oh hell this is
really nothing to be sleepless about in the big scheme of things�
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But�.feeeee uck a
truck�.I wish I didn�t have this problem.�
Can I buy a passing grade?� Uh�.even
I know the answer to that problem is negative.
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At least you my one
reader knows now that there is truth in grade advertising�eh?
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Can�t you tell how
very destroyed math has made me?� ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
short msg to my son who occasionally reads my rantings....I will for sure still love you in huge amounts even if you fail a Math course!! (even if you fail READING....but don't!!)
p.s. don't email me about my using the F word and my son possibly seeing it. I'm a horrible Mom who told him that I know that word exists instead of letting him believe that only that one kid on the playground uses it.